So my name's going on Discovery channel as assistant producer!

I guess, I am happy about that.

But on the other hand, I still feel so very very tired.

Did I quit too early?

Will I ever find a better place to be?

I've been disinterested in things.

Is that how I should be?

Of course not.

Was I less disinterested before?

I think so. I'm a 'keen' girl in a way too. Very accepting. Very keen to take things on.

But what happened to the beat of my heart? Haha corny thing to say

Now I hold back more than I leapt forth. Like I wanted to control myself more than to show myself.

Geez.