I went on a short film shoot. It was a war film. What an idea! Very different to have gone on this shoot.

This is such a time when I would wonder why I want to leave Melbourne.

I haven't been on a film shoot for my own Uni course for the whole of last semester! 6 whole months. Lol. I was on shoots for both semesters last year, and then this semester.

I want to keep going on production.. As a student! What the hell. =/

I love it, the crew, the cast, all working together. All funny and cool people. Most cooler than I am. But I talk to them, and heck, people are so great on a film shoot that lots of people come talk to me even when I am shy. But I show how I'm absolutely glad to be part of a group effort, and I don't shy away from people completely there, because I get so interested in watching people, you know. I like making guesses about people's lives. Probably comes from my interest in detective stories and stuff.

I even fall in love with the actors, directors all the time. It has happened before! Haha. It's not that serious, but I'm telling you, the ones I have a serious crush on, and really remember over the times I've had in Melbourne (and maybe once in Singapore even), they are the people I've met on a production set. People open up there, they're funny, they're cool, they're amazing. Cooler than me even perhaps, know more things than I do. But that doesn't matter. Obviously I'm always learning, and can't be the greatest. And I'm proud of myself whenever I throw all the unnecessary things about what one knows and one doesn't, and talk to people like we're all just the same, we're all just good people who want to be on that set to get a little something out of it. Do I have to convince you much more how these group efforts are the most amazing thing I experience with people? Hah.

Why, why would I leave Melbourne? There's lots happening here. But don't know if it can be called a career path at all. If I don't leave Melbourne, I'd never get 'anywhere'. But isn't it amazing to be random sometimes, and have one thing lead to another?

I wanna go home and spend time with family.

Where will I go again after I go back to Singapore for a while?

Where is there a story or just something that only I can do. I don't mind doing something small, but where will I make a difference. Where will these production efforts make a difference in my life, and make a difference to what I learn.

Melbourne, I will miss you.

I don't need like lasting happiness or what not. I mean, my family makes me feel safe and happy. And obviously, if only I could find someone to love and someone to love me for how simple I am and slightly crazy as I may be, that would be the greatest. I would stay. But happiness right now is knowing whatever I work for is going to be worth it.

This actor had the word truth tattooed on his wrist. Apparently, cause that's what I overheard someone commenting about it. I talked to him too. Lovely people. Him too. Haha. Well, I just talked to him when I managed to corner him to offer a cup of tea because I was sort of runner and assisting the producer for the day. Metres away in a makeshift house/shed from the muddy grounds on which the film was being shot. I was on the shooting grounds on the previous day, but they lacked the person who was stationed in the shed for the next day so I took her place.

I think I found a new, great position in which I can talk to people. Corner them for an offer of coffee/tea. Great vocation. It's hard to speak to people when it's not on a more personal basis.. I don't even know enough of that 'cool speak' to keep offering new stories about what I've come across to keep going anyway. But I do know a little about offering ideas about the impressions I get from what they've come across and what I have.

How could I give up production. Even if I'm usually the runner. How could I give up production here.

So, I was on The Edge film shoot. With coursemates like Elliot, Emma, Sean, Jonathan, Josh, Ke, Chris, Hoon and cast Patrick, Michael, Brenton. And I've not revealed that this is my blog, but yeah, there was me, ---. (Oh no oh no, I've censored my own name now. If not can just search my name and this blog can easily have its privacy invaded.) Lol. If anybody should search for the film shoot someday, perhaps you'll find this post here about what I'll always remember from the day.

Truth. Hell, yeah.