[Note: This post will have me waxing lyrical...]

Sometimes finding a way to pass time, like tonight, doesn't seem that easy... When it's just SIANN... But anyway, no big deal. It's like any another night. And I could choose to find my best friends to chat with or sth. But I'm just.. tired.. Don't feel like doing a thing.. But turn on music.. Find something good to watch.. Till I get sleepy enough.. Slack night tonight... Stoning night, zoning out night, whatever-it-is night.

The night's good for wasting time and drifting off. And the way it drags is inexplicable. x)

Alright that's it, new Facebook alert haunting me. Gonna ignore Facebk tonight cuz it's boring tonight, and so MSN it is.

As SIAN as it will be from time to time, I use my time to absorb new things!

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Why have I not listened to Death Cab For Cutie's Transatlanticism right to the end of the song until now? The whole song is 'wow'. :)

And I'm reading a new $10 Penguin paperback, with collected poems by a guy who went on some journeys then became a musician, Leonard Cohen. The book's great. I'm halfway through. Poems about God (he writes as 'G-d'), and there are also pretty sensual poems. It's called the Book of Longing. Yeah, I do want to know what that would feel like right at the moment. I watched a pretty flat and boring Taiwan film last night about 2 gay guys and a girl. Story ought to be good, but I didn't feel a thing. Taiwan films can bore me out. Why explore sexuality? Don't know leh. This is just a question to be curious about. And like, films which explore that kinda get more attention artistically. Maybe. Still I didn't feel a thing for the film. For that particular film. So maybe next film to watch ought to be Wong Kar Wai's Happy Together. It might be tonnes better. The feeling of longing. How is that like.

The fabulous Death Cab For Cutie song that I said I happen to be listening to. The singer sings beautifully, "I need you so much closer"...

The song stretches on to 8 minutes, with wonderful soft electric guitar accompaniment in the background.

What do I need? Just these basic tiny little 'inspirations'. Is that it? I try to externalize it in my 'works'. I try.

Generation from within.

Tonight is 'slack night'. Start of tomorrow, I'll get to writing again. And appreciate the chance to produce sth constructive. I've got films to write about, and as well as a film script of my own to write this weekend. Quite challenging. It's good.

But on 'slack night', I lose the push to work on something quite intentionally. And read/watch/listen to stuff I like, and get impressed with the beauty of works that seems quite far away. It doesn't mean that I get discouraged. It's not just one piece of work that impresses either; it's also the combination of stuff that I happen to be tuning in to. Then I think about the sweetness of coincidence in this world. Sort of. And acknowledge that it is out of the reach of my reason. And so I do not reason at this sort of times.

... If everybody is lonely, why then would I hide my story?

... If I have to talk about something, I won't be talking about the normality of things.

[Waxing lyrical, as I say would be.]

The book of collected poems/writings/drawings I'm reading is AWESOME.