Am I really going to go back to Singapore after this??

Watched the Chinese epic movie Aftershock just now. So well done. :) It's a big scale movie, and yet it's so moving. Good characters. Good story. The characters even leave the country when they get older, but they return home to visit their individual parents and stuff. So touching.. They don't exactly have a complete family after the earthquake, but this whole movie is about family.

Am I really going to go back to Singapore after this?

Go and catch After Shock! I cried! Cried comfortably. Didn't even feel uncomfortable as when I watched Eric Khoo's Mee Pok Man or something. Lol. After Shock was so worth the ticket price. The cinema is still one of my favorite places to be. I liked watching After Shock with my China friend sitting beside me too. She cried more. HAHA.

Am I really going to go back to Singapore after this.

Well, wherever it is, I will still get tired with modern preoccupations sometimes. But when I watch something good, something that makes me feel again, it feels pretty darn good. I really cannot deal with the superficial man. But I do.

I want so much to know if I can be someone called 'me', or if something that I have to spend so much of my life and time upon has any use at all? I want to be happy. I want to be happy in a real sense. Without having to fake it. I want to feel something without having to fake it. But as happiness is always my top priority, I still keep myself happy. My happiness should not just be the from day-to-day kind. But of course I keep myself happy from day-to-day. I know the importance of that. Our loved ones help us through. Keep us happy. But though living life from day to day is a good way to go, I think there is also a problem with this kind of modern mentality. We need more rooted-ness. It's so hard (and boring) to keep dealing with the superficial. To not see anything 'new' around anymore. To just see the same desperation to fill life with the same old superficial crap.

Give me someone who knows what he/she is doing. Or who would at least admit that life is not perfect, and is crammed full of shit and hours that alternate between being with a loved one and being alone. Hours that alternate between feeling inspired and feeling totally like shit. Some people don't even have the former. At least I do have some friends and family. Who will spend time with me when I ask them to. Who are friends with me because I am me. But I get v. annoyed when friends disappear at any point. Ha.

When I do go back to Singapore, am I going to lose my feelings for what I love?

... But it's normal to want to talk about things in life like it's worth living. Lol.

So here is what I like about today.

I like After Shock. I like stories. I like stories about family. I like being a Chinese.

Lol..

I shouldn't spend too much time on blogging, though it just feels so good to be blogging again now!

And I wonder if I should also branch out to talking about my interest in more things besides film... But it always boils down to that... Because film is that wide... It's all encompassing. Film is representative of life. Okay, so here on this blog, I shall talk about life.

And now I need to go take a piss. (For real!)