Royston Tan also made short film on gays in 2009! Alfian Saat wrote it. Whyyyyy? It's all the same people lor? I'm doing research for my feature. Definitely interesting.

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"Ya, looks like some themes are quite persistent and worthy of ever more scrutiny, certainly of support. The gay life subject matter as such is fascinating precisely because it is a margin that the majority of people have a share in, one way or another. And whether it yields assent has less to do with what is being portrayed, than how the light’s been cast, I think. It is also the only valid reason I see, why a filmic statement on lesbian and gay issues remains a special filmic challenge and potentially rewarding."

- Quoted from blog site "proto-ymagon"

Hmm, good one.

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I have to say.. If I don't get the gay stuff, then I guess that's just the way it is. It's not that I don't accept it. But I don't get it. Even if I am happy to accept it. Can one even try to understand? I've been watching other films like Wong Kar Wai's Happy Together and what not as well. I love the film. I feel for it a little too. Okay so, homosexual love is just love. So, love comes in many shapes...? But I don't necessarily feel for gay/lesbian films.. Duh, it should depend on how well made the film is as well. But this shouldn't be a trend, should it. It's not like some 'cool' thing. Just because something taboo is being addressed, so it gets the controversy and praise. Why is everybody praising Boo Junfeng? I ought to watch his films and then I'd finally find out for myself. Right now, without even being in S'pore, I'm catching whiffs of his name everywhere and his handsome face keeps turning up on my webpages. Damn it. Lol. The internet is making this guy a mythical figure for me. Ha. Well no. I just find it interesting. The things I can still find on the internet without having to be back there in SG. I like to see things like a puzzle. If I were to be force fed with what I'm supposed to think and know, then things cease to be a puzzle. (So it's better not knowing? What is this - House MD? Noo. House MD always wants to know. But hey, he only wants to know abt his cases but never about people. XD)

I would support all my gay friends. But what if it's also kind of heartbreaking for the non-gay people? xP I want to understand... I can barely make films now... There's so much more to understand... Things in the big picture... What differentiates you from me? What makes us all the same?

Gay people need acceptance.. But everybody needs acceptance.. I think people who don't get the issues homosexual people face need help too.. Can't expect everybody to straightaway get it.. Even if I straightaway get that nobody should be ostracized for who they are.. But then I am just one person.. One single open-minded person.. But yah, I only talk n talk, and no action. Okay, go off and write my article liao.

I don't need to just keep reading the constant praise. I need to watch those films right nw! xP

What makes a film beautiful? I want to watch those films. I want to see their way of expression.

Know what's also interesting? The guy sat in front of my friends and me at the National Museum years ago, among like six other filmmakers in a talk session. This idea of having seen someone before, and now they're making a 'comeback' is real interesting.

Ok, after this week's feature, I think I ought to leave the homosexual love theme aside and find something else. But hey, it's been pretty interesting so far, watching the exploration of sexuality in films. I'm kinda trying to write about those young angsty films as well. So I've seen the mv-ish style film, Eternal Summer. And another, Blue Gate Crossing. And finally, Happy Together. Don't think I've even seen enough yet. If I really were to go deep into the exploration of sexuality thing, I should include more rated stuff in my to-watch list too. Haha. Okay. Really got to go. Can't spend more than an hour here.

...Mainstream, 'non mainstream', can't figure out where I fit in at all. Maybe I don't. Maybe for now, its just time for standing back and observing, and then next time there might be a time for knowing what kind of film to step out with.

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And I think.. A film is really about the art of expression and escapism. There are really no rules for it.