Sam AGAIN!

Haha gosh, I'm sleepy. Slacking in bed before turning in! ESSAYS ALL DONE. :) Editing tomorrow. Editing is tiring. But itz cool. Can't wait to release my film. Doesn't that just sound so cool. Release my film. :D

Spiderman's soundtrack a lot more juvenile than I remember. Haha. Guess my liking it last time means I was juvenile! Was. Am. .... Still love the movies.

Isn't it about time for me to go back home now. =/

UH HUH! :) Aiyoooo, Bo Liao.

From the TV Show's webpage.

I really do have to get back to my essay, don't I.

It's the last leg of it.

And I still can't get back to it.

Sian!

But after that, Woaaaaaaaah.

What a lot of leisurely things I could do.

I can't do this.

But, I need to.

Writing mode, please come back.

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"for Meursault he doesn't play his game among men, and later on realizes that he was kind of playing the game against the world by refusing to react to the world, but actually he should have just -really- played his game against the world by playing along with it, and played the (lower-level) game with men as well"

Can you imagine the editing that comes before the submission of the assignment?

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‎"He doesn't complain, and he doesn't realize that he doesn't complain. The Outsider is about a man who jeopardizes himself when he doesn't bother to complain and on the other hand, Jane Eyre is a complain queen."

"In another novel by Camus, The Stranger, this man is placed in jail after a murder for which he does not have any real motive. His guilt is obvious, as well as the fact that he is not ignorant to the implications of his crime. He is a character devoid of real emotion, as expressed by the lack of grief shown at his own mother's funeral. Society, in his opinion, provides no meaning for life. A person removed from society can find more meaning in life than one submerged in it, even though the eventual fate of this man is an execution that will be the end of that life. Society gives the illusion of many things that prove false when examined in a place untainted by outside influences. It is necessary to live in the society, but not to be deceived by it. Even Russell understands that "the common life means dwelling in a web of relationships, the many threads tugging you while holding you upright". Each "thread" is not necessarily a threat to your survival, yet also does not protect you entirely. It is in realizing this fact that an individual can learn to balance isolation and interaction with society."

http://www.associatedcontent.com/article/823843/isolation_from_society_pg2.html?cat=38

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Absurdism!

INDEED!

Tired of essay research... -.-zZzzZ

"I told my Soul to sing--

She said her Strings were snapt--

Her bow--to Atoms blown--

And so to mend her--gave me work--

Until another Morn--"

- Emily Dickinson

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I wanna go home! Still got a month to go.

A week more of Uni work!

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Anger.

Anger is Sexy.

Yeah, sometimes it can be!

Grrrroooowwl. Can I have a puppy?

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Another vid got me hooked on a song! So cute.

GAWD, I HATE THIS.

I HATE THIS VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY MUCH.

Still being influenced by Supernatural. Hate-spewing speeches. *teeth gnashing*

It's all cool.

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Hey, is my obsession really random of me? I have been obsessed by boybands before, so I guess not eh.

And because this is not the time for Grey's or House, and anyway I just have half of the latest season of Grey's, and not sure where I'm up to with House now. Got S6 burnt to CD. But I won't watch them both because I'll rather watch Supernatural since I've dl-ed it as a complete season. Whoo yeah.

I really feel like going more the cool chick route than the dainty one look. Hah.

Blah. But then I'm just a girl, not yet a woman. -_-

And I actually get influenced to act more like the male characters than the female ones, since the male ones are the leads. -_-

Ghost busting never looked this good.

I was referring to my last essay in the beginning.

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"The last pages of a book are often found in the first."

"The Outsider is not an explanatory book. The absurd man does not explain; he describes. Nor is it a book which proves anything."

"The fact that certain great novelists have chosen to write in terms of images rather than of arguments reveals a great deal about a certain kind of thinking common to them all, a conviction of the futility of all explanatory principles, and of the instructive message of sensory impressions."

I want to say something just for a dramatic effect here - As I get older, the world seems more and more like a lie.

Hee.

>.<"

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Well, the truth is. I know my family and my few friends are never going to be the ones lying to me.

The world only seems like a lie sometimes because there are a lot of people who are living a lie.

Sometimes, when I just stop trying so hard to 'live', when I just internalize/externalize my boredom without going too crazy, when I know that boredom will just pass over but hopefully along the way I'm still accumulating something constructive and good in my life - I know I'm not one of the people who are living a lie. People are tiresome when they make it so obvious that they're just "living a lie".

I don't wanna have to pretend to live; I just want to live. Even if pretending to live gives the appearance of a more exciting life.

I don't wanna have to pretend to live. I'M JUST ALIVE. I just am.

>.<;;

I don't wanna do all the usual things from day-to-day. Sure, I don't mind them. All the usual activities. But ask me. Ask me what I think of life. And I could tell you some. And I could show you some. And they'll be things which have the likes of nothing you've ever seen before.

Lol.

Crapatular. Gotta go.

"Art is a lie that makes us realize the truth."

- Pablo Picasso